You Know You Love Me.

Tomorrow will mark the end of my accounting nightmare. I can only hope the paper will be do-able. At least not like the tests where I didn't have time, didn't stay calm enough to apply what I knew, and basically didn't have proper functioning brains. But I'm working on it. I'm trying hard. I can do it!



I can't wait to leave for Gold Coast. I can't wait to be away from school and leave Singapore for two whole weeks. Leave the bloody stress behind before the next crazy term starts again and I have to think about exchange and internship.. 0_o

But you know, everytime I take a break and go on to tumblr, there are things that never fail to intrigue me. What I see also tells me that God's watching over me. So.. lemme share some of the too-cute-to-resist/ too-cute-not-to-share photos I've come across in the last 15 mins. (:

my nose is running, AGAIN, for the one millionth time. whywhywhywhywhy! i cannot afford to fall sick now. dammit.

this semester's exams are gonna be a killer. okay, one particular exam is going to be a killer. i hope i pull through. i'm gonna work ultra hard from next semester on. make sure i really do damn well. a promise to myself, my parents, my brother, and my grandma.

this is what i'm working for. my goal for the spring term of 2011:

Symptom: Sleepiness. The one and only symptom.

Cause: Notes, textbooks, powerpoint slides, word documents, my presentation script, exams

Result: Falling asleep, waking up to find nothing has been done and its time for evening mass.

Things that perpetrate the allergy: More attempts to complete reports, presentation scripts, and more attempts to even START studying.

Cure: Cancelling of exams, watching chinese shows and gossip girl all day, a holiday.

the end is near. the end is near. the end is near. the holidays are coming.

something about accounting during this term that makes me hate studying so much. i open my book and my brain shuts off immediately. i can't wait for next semester. everything will be more hectic, yet more interesting. and i can say bye bye to stressful nights deciding how much i should bid for my lessons once i declare my major. bidding is officially the bane of a smu student's existence. AND, my chinese shows are keeping me away from my books. new taiwan cutie alert! (: just like how i love many songs, i love all my husbands. how scandalous. (;

on another note, i'm itching to dance. itching to pirouette my way across the studio. can't wait for december because december equals family time, australia, dance, friends, and christmas. i should stop counting down. it only makes time crawl.


XOXO,
D

Sher said during lunch that for every five years of marriage, you change a metal. And the first five years of marriage are 'cotton'.  COTTON IS A METAL MEH?! Then I want my first five years of marriage to be called cotton candy cos my husband will be so sweet and sensitive and handsome and tall and caring and.. and...  Keep dreaming man! HAHAHA.

Anyway, I think we all look like taitais here. Beautiful ones to be exact.

 

I didn't even get to sleep last night. If I did it was prolly for a period so short it didn't feel like I slept at all. The toilet was my room for a night. Ran back and forth 4 times during the night to LS. What did I eat? Now my stomach and legs feel like jelly. Like there's nothing left. I might have excreted my brains as well cos I'm in no mood to study for my marketing test. I just feel like lying in bed, bugging my bolster and stoning. Can't wait for tmr, 6pm. 

I know this is completely random but I took my textbook from my shelf three days ago, opened it, told myself to study, and momentarily zoned of into imagination-mode.

And then I thought about what Heaven would look like if I could create it after I read the news about the Sentosa Cove. God was still the Almighty, and he hired me to help him "design" it so everyone would enjoy it after their life on earth.

Then I thought about how I wanted everything in Heaven to be free. Not free in the Singaporean sense where people rush like idiots for free stuff just because it was free. More like whatever good things you wanted, it was there. And it came at no cost. Of course when I say this, I mean things like a big house, a good family- regardless of whatever situations you were in on earth- who came to join you after their time on Earth was up, you will never be lonely because everyone in Heaven possesses the capacity to be real friends with everyone, there was a chapel and prayer corner at every turn for anyone who needed it, and there was no such thing as greed or bitchiness or the 7 deadly sins or anything bad.

Sounds far-fetched but that's what I imagined it to be. So if you wanted a big house and a good family, it would be for good reasons and not because you wanted a big house to show off. And everyone's house would look like those gorgeous architechtural homes you see on travel and living, those you see in expensive architechtural books at borders, or those at Sentosa Cove. And everyone had their own home just like those because God wanted everyone to have the best. But like I said, there is nothing evil in the Heaven I imagined so everyone looked after each other's homes while the other was out and never had any intensions to loot it.

And when more and more people entered Heaven each day, the goodness expanded on its own. So there were no boundaries to how big Heaven was. It was big enough to accommodate everyone but when the time came to look at everything with one glance, up where God was watching over everyone, we could see everything and all the love that was spreading around. [:

This makes me realise how thankful I am for God and how thankful I am that he's always been watching over me, my family, and my friends.

AND... especially when he knew along that I've wanted to go to SMU (despite knowing my interest is in the arts and political science), he put me in business in SMU, not accountancy. Praise the Lord. Only he knows what overcame me when I put accountacy as my second choice for SMU. Luckily I put FASS as my second choice for NUS. Can you imagine if I did get into accountancy?! Management accounting sucks and I never wanna see accounting ever again after this term.

I'm so bored. I have a ton of things to do but I'm just too lazy to get cracking. Its term break man. Bad enough that I go back to school almost everyday. I just wanna slack at home. Which technically I am doing. Ahahaha. So, I'm deciding to blog about my love for my taiwan boys.

I tell you, I'm such an Ah Lian on the inside. Its no wonder my CJ friends always call me Ah Lian when I meet them: "So ah lian, how are you? Eh ah lian, how's school. Ah lian, wanna meet for lunch?". Idiot. But then again, I won't deny it. Cos as much of a pronunciation nazi I may be and as much as I hate people who talk like Babarella and Ris Low, I really think I'm an ah lian on the inside. Outside jiak kan tang, inside chao ah lian. OOPS!

This can be further proven through my love for 阮经天& 藍正龍 (Since ya'll must know how much I love them so you can start sourcing for a cheap ticket to Taiwan for my 21st birthday! Heh heh kidding!). Two different types of guys, both taiwanese models yet so different in their acting and modeling styles. OMG I LIKEEEEEE. :D





Hanar, ya'll gonna say I love everybody. But they're my all time favourite taiwan boys. Hehehe. So, 阮经, 藍正龍, David Beckham, if you're reading this, I WANNA MARRY YOU! Hehehe.

Okay going for netball training. Byeeeeee.

FINALLY.

I get a day to rest. God rests on Sundays, I rest on A thursday. Its been a terribly hectic period. Eveything's been such a brain-drain, I sleep on average 4 hours a day.

Today especially, had been a very bad day.

Started out with no electricity in the morning. It woke me from my 3 hours of sleep. I had no choice but to turn on my computer. That was after I realised, oh, I have no internet.

Then I called my shitface groupmate to ask if he had already sent me his part of the report which I was suppose to reference and standardize only this morning cos he was "busy" last night.. "Oh, yeah... Erm... But I'm making more changes because I think your part needs improvement. So I'll send to you again later". WHY DON'T YOU JUST DO MY PART SINCE YOU DELETED ALMOST ALL FOUR PAGES THAT I WROTE? And, haven't finish don't send. Just tell me. And, his later really meant LATE-R. So late that I had 10 mins to reference and standardize his shitty, lousy, messy formatting after they restored the electricity. Piece of frickin' shit. This shows that me having no electricity has nothing to do with his lateness that almost made me late for my exam. Electricity restored at 1015, he sent me his part at 11am. I was to leave the house at 1110am. Don't even get me started about other f***ing things he does. I'm just so glad right now that I don't hafta see his face anymore.

The day could't get any worse. I waited 15 full minutes for a cab. Nooo cab. I called, the uncle took 10 full mins to come and I was already running so late. While waiting for my cab to arrive, sooo many cabs drove past. Seriously. Annoying or what. Maybe next time just tahan this kinda shitty group mate. He must know I hate him so badly and is cursing me and my inability to flag a cab.

I got two class a minutes before my negotiation exam which was so damned tricky and tough. Not to mention its worth 45% of my final grade. Sighs.

Adding fuel to the fire, I screwed up my mock interview for career skills. My mouth just couldn't wait to say, "And this is what I feel makes a good marketing and sales manager". It just had to say it even though my head was telling me, "Mention leadership as a competency. Don't forget. Mention leaership as a competency. Don't forget". But I forgot. KNS la.

To top it of, I wasn't selected to be apart of SMU's 10th Patron's Day Organizing Committee. Sighs. I really wanted it. Cassandra got in and I'm really happy for her. She looks like she's really gonna enjoy herself. (: Hopefully I'll be able to participate in some other way.

Things couldn't get worse today. But I'm glad its over. I'm just gonna catch up on the lost hours of sleep.

On a sidenote, I think Christopher Lee's really goodlooking. Teehee. You may disagree and tell me my taste is weird. But whatever!

Old he may be, with crow's feet, I think he really is goodlooking man. And I wish I could marry him cos he looked so gorgeous in those Zegna suits. If I don't marry him, which I obviously won't, I wanna find someone like him. Someone soooo sensitive towards you and who knows me so well and is the one who remembers the details in the relationship. Let me be the irritating one for once. The one who says I dunno to everything yet have him still embrace the flaws and say, neh mind, I still wanna marry youuuu. Hahaha. They're such a cute couple lor, even though Fann Wong's damn bloody teh. Eeee yer, cannot stand girls who are toooooo teh.

Alright. Sleep, here I come. My eyes... they're closing.

GOODNIGHTTTT.

I really need a break. And this isn't the worse yet. This is just the beginning..

Its not even CCA that's the taking its toll. Its the workload and projects and everything culminating in a couple of weeks that's burning me out. I don't get enough sleep and I'm doing literally everything for one demanding module that's only half a credit and half a semester.  I have a presentation next tuesday and an exam with a weightage of 40% on wednesday followed by a group paper- which I've being handling alone despite asking repeatedly for some form of contribution- on the same day and an interview later that day.

What i need it this:


Someone to tell me, its okay. Kill me laaaaaaaaaaaaa.



XOXO,
D

I bet you can figure who said this. Muuuuust be God talking. Hahaha.

Joy's leaving for England on sunday for the Rambert School of Ballet and Contemporary Dance. Yet another friend leaving for another country to study and pursue something they love. But we had a good farewell party for her, so here are a few photos.. (:


I really wonder how people do it- surviving alone overseas. I've always thought about how I'd survive if I were alone in the US or England studying. What happens if there's a lizard in my room and I need to study? My brother's not there to get rid of it and most of the time the sight of a lizard is enough to make me freak out and go into fits! What if the internet's not working and I have an assignment due online? Who am I gonna ask for help? What if I'm too sick to go to the doctor and the nearest clinic's 10miles away? How am I gonna ask for help? Singapore's so small. If I was sick today, I'd get up and walk to the market where the GP is. But not overseas when they're so far they might as well be out of this earth.

I really admire people who go overseas and adapt so easily. Sure they may be afraid at the start, but still, they manage to do it.

I'd like to try. It'll definitely be a challenge.. But a challenge that will leave me feeling so much more independent and satisfied with myself.

Maybe in year three when I decide to go for an exchange... Hmmm.....


XOXO,
D

Dear Girls, Watch this.

It's like S-Factor, except its more embarrassing since she's a Miss Singapore World Representative.

Maybe she can be a role model for ASS-PER-GEEs. Maybe we should make her a sistel of ours heh?
You will laugh til your jaws and cheeks ache.



And to add to the laughter, check out this literal spoof of Total Eclipse of the Heart- lyrics that literally match a video from the 80s.
So funny, you hafta watch! Hehehe!




XOXO,
D

i just found out that grandma has stage 3 colon cancer. it's spread to her stomach and lymph nodes. she told me last week she isn't worried about anyone because she knows we've all grown up and are good children & grandchildren. all she wants is to see me graduate. i need prayers so god can make a miracle happen for 2012.

My Negotiation Skills for Business class has got SO many exchange students. Three Germans (2 extremely beautiful girls who've got such nice blonde hair and green eyes), one Finish, one Indian, one South African, one Italian, many PRCs, and ONE ABERCROMBIE-ISH HOTTIE from Ecuador!

Woohoo! He sits two seats away from me and while other Professors don't make mention of staying in the same seat every week, this Israeli Professor has requested for us to do so! That means that if i look on the bright side, even though I might not get to sit next to him, I'm only a couple of people away from him. Seriously, drooldrooldrool!

The first semester of school also always sees exchange students coming in from all over the world and I saw another hottie yesterday, cuter than the Ecuadorian. Turned to Jill and grinned the biggest grin I could give and she said "HAHAHA SHUT UP I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING!". Teehehe!

Anyway, I've got so much readings to do, and I haven't even started. Its gonna be like that throughout the term. Nothing but readingsreadingsreadingsworkworkworkprojectsprojectsprojects! Kill me la.

Tmr's CCA Day. I'm gonna sign up for Indancity, SMU's contemporary dance CCA. If I get thru auditions, it'll be a miracle since they're accepting only a handful. And if I do, Tuesdays will be a full day of classes followed by Netball training, Wednesdays will be dance practice in the evening and Friday's will be the usual- going to school for a mere one and a half hours. Stupid man. One thing that held me back about joining dance in Yr1 was that practices are on sundays as well. I'm not liking it since I've gotta go after mass. Its a sacrifice I gotta make man. Cos I know I wanna dance in school if I'm gonna stop dancing outside of it.

Heard that an SAC Junior has passed away. Rest in Peace dear. <3

Meet on sunday girls? I GOTTA UPDATE. TSK. (I'll update you tmr in school, jill)


XOXO,
D

GURSSS!

WATCH OUT!

YA'LL GONNA BE ROCKIN' TO MUSIC DOWN THE AISLE LIKE THIS AWESOME GROUP OF BESTMEN & BRIDESMAIDS AT MY WEDDING!

CHECK IT OUT!



It's funny and fresh yet heartwarming and filled with so much love for the couple and each other. Love it. ♥
You hafta watch this!

Better start grooving to the beat. No need for dance lessons! At my wedding, you can express yourselves when you go down the aisle. HEHEHE.

I have the dresses in mind and the inspiration for the church wedding. All I need now is a groom.

ANYBODY WANNA MARRY ME? :D


XOXO,
D